Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Wrecked


My story of being wrecked would be in high school. God had called me into leadership but I was against it. I was so afraid of leading people that I kind of ignored the call of God. But as everyone knows God always gets his way. It reminds me a lot of Joana and the whale. No matter how far he ran away God always turned him back to where he was suppose to be. Anyways my mentor told me to pray about it and really think and meditate on it. Then at winter came during the first night of worship God specifically told me I need to do this and I finally surrendered to what he wanted.
But shortly after becoming a small group leader I was thrown into a desert where I could no longer feel God. This season in my life was hard for me because I did not understand. I would always ask God why can't I feel you. I humbled my self and did what you wanted me too. I was actively serving Him and through this time I pressed into Him even more and began to learn even more about Him even when I could not feel Him. This season in my life lasted from the beginning of sophomore year all the way through my senior year of high school. This time during my life was extremely hard for me but I was able to get through it because I had a mentor and friends who always pushed me to push even deeper into God. I was able to learn so much from this experience. God showed me that I do not always need to feel Him in order to truly worship Him.  I was able to also grow in my relationship with God on a deeper level.